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Omotola Mujota.

Hidden lens photography.

HONESTY.

So, I realized that many people are faking their way through this stage in their lives.

By popular belief, this is the most fragile stage of the human being’s life for the mind. This is where most personalities are discovered and developed by one’s self. 

The people I see around are so FAKE. Everyone makes so much mouth online but when it comes to person-to-person where does it all go? I get so frustrated and angry about this particular issue with my mates because it’s all so pointless. Acting so high and mighty for what damned reason??

What have they done to earn this “title” they so greatly bestow upon themselves? 

Nowadays, everyone just follows whosoever the deem “socially acceptable” It’s as if no one is their own person. I find it so refreshing when i find someone who has their own essence, someone who isn’t like everyone. This is so rare but that is how life is meant to be!!

People have become so angry at life itself. They see the bad in everything. They complain and complain. They pick apart someone’s joy and happiness because they have none of their own.

i honestly do not under any circumstances want to be perceived as an easy girl or whatever. I do not want to be associated with such people of this generation. I do not want to seem like a girl that has been passed around, or a girl that’s so easy to get.

I really was adorable.

I really was adorable.

This is me. About a year ago, last summer at camp in New York. 
In this picture, I was modeling for a friend of mine who was really into fashion photography. 
I look at this picture now and think, where did that confident young lady go? At what point in time over the course of a year did she find her inhibitions? When did she begin to limit herself? When did she stop appreciating herself?
I feel like I’ve been caged by the people I encounter or hear about, be it in person, on social networking, you name it. I see people do amazing things, say amazing things, and before I would have said to myself “be better!” “you can do it, what’s stopping you?” but as of this moment, I can’t find the fighting spirit in myself. I can’t find the drive to be better and achieve because I feel like there is always going to be someone better at what I do or at what I am trying to acquaint myself with so why even bother?
It is true, there will always be someone better, if you aren’t the best and even if you are the best, someone can rip that title out of your hands in the blink of an eye but that doesn’t mean you should give up and stop trying to better yourself.
 I… I can’t even find the competitive side of me anymore. I feel that I have been permanently set aside as AVERAGE. Like when people see me or see my abilities, they just think “okay, what’s special here?” I so badly want to possess that light that has people stop and observe. I want to catch the attention of people. Be it by my intelligence, my personality, my looks, my words, my actions but no, all I am is AVERAGE.
I now know my limits, I know my place. I know things I can do and things I shouldn’t even imagine myself doing. I know all that I can be and I know what I dare not try to be in order to avoid being a laughing stock.
I have successfully put myself in this cage where I give myself no room to explore and I hate it. I hate that I feel like I’ll never measure up to people and I hate to sound superficial but damn do I wish I was prettier! I won’t lie and say “looks don’t matter to me” because they do matter to me, not to the point of constantly obsessing but I would really like to be prettier. Just so I can at least be noticed because being honest, no one stops to talk to you for the first time because your personality shined, it was because you looked good.
I want to be known for anything good. I don’t want to just pass by. 

This is me. About a year ago, last summer at camp in New York. 

In this picture, I was modeling for a friend of mine who was really into fashion photography. 

I look at this picture now and think, where did that confident young lady go? At what point in time over the course of a year did she find her inhibitions? When did she begin to limit herself? When did she stop appreciating herself?

I feel like I’ve been caged by the people I encounter or hear about, be it in person, on social networking, you name it. I see people do amazing things, say amazing things, and before I would have said to myself “be better!” “you can do it, what’s stopping you?” but as of this moment, I can’t find the fighting spirit in myself. I can’t find the drive to be better and achieve because I feel like there is always going to be someone better at what I do or at what I am trying to acquaint myself with so why even bother?

It is true, there will always be someone better, if you aren’t the best and even if you are the best, someone can rip that title out of your hands in the blink of an eye but that doesn’t mean you should give up and stop trying to better yourself.

 I… I can’t even find the competitive side of me anymore. I feel that I have been permanently set aside as AVERAGE. Like when people see me or see my abilities, they just think “okay, what’s special here?” I so badly want to possess that light that has people stop and observe. I want to catch the attention of people. Be it by my intelligence, my personality, my looks, my words, my actions but no, all I am is AVERAGE.

I now know my limits, I know my place. I know things I can do and things I shouldn’t even imagine myself doing. I know all that I can be and I know what I dare not try to be in order to avoid being a laughing stock.

I have successfully put myself in this cage where I give myself no room to explore and I hate it. I hate that I feel like I’ll never measure up to people and I hate to sound superficial but damn do I wish I was prettier! I won’t lie and say “looks don’t matter to me” because they do matter to me, not to the point of constantly obsessing but I would really like to be prettier. Just so I can at least be noticed because being honest, no one stops to talk to you for the first time because your personality shined, it was because you looked good.

I want to be known for anything good. I don’t want to just pass by. 

Bunmi Agusto. DWC

#Summer2014

#Summer2014

So, I’d like to share with you all, my natural journey.

On the 28th of December, 2013, I did what I’d said I would always do, I cut my hair. I’d stopped relaxing my hair for about a year prior to my BIG CHOP. I was very nervous but I did it anyway. So I had my mom cut off all the relaxed/ chemically treated hair.

When she was done, I had about 4.5 inches of hair on my head. As soon as we were done, we drove to the local supermarket (Edichart) and bought the things I had researched on for my hair regimen. I intended to try them out and see how my hair reacted to these products. I opted for the Beautiful Textures line and bought a Leave-in conditioner, Moisture Curl Cremé, Curl Pudding, and Curl Custard. I also bought Argan Oil Edge Control for my edges. I WAS READY AND ARMED!!!!

I made sure to stay away from products with Sulfates as they can dry out hair but I didn’t mind using products with Dimethicone but not as a main ingredient.

Now it has been roughly 7 months since the Big Chop and I am proud to say that I have reached 7 inches, which translates to neck length when stretched. I have stopped using heat on my hair as well, in total, since the big chop, I have blow-dried my hair all but 3 times and never straightened. I can honestly see the improvement in the health of my hair and have noticed the reduced amount of shedding!!

I will continue to update on my natural hair journey and for those who are wondering, I have hair of the type 4b/4c texture. 

Happy Birthday to my beautiful baby brother! #Summer2014

Happy Birthday to my beautiful baby brother! #Summer2014